6 to go.....

I don't know how long this blog entry will be. I'm exhausted. I'm at a point now in my prep where everything takes effort above and beyond what I'm used to giving. Today after training I had to talk myself into getting on the stepmill for HIT cardio. It wasn't that I didn't want to do it, but when you are so tired that all you want to do is go home and eat and then go back to bed, it takes a mental pep talk to get your butt in gear. I have to say that after I train and do cardio in the mornings I am on sort of a runner's high. Your blood sugar is very low at that point so after you eat and you get that insulin spike....hello veins!!!! It's a good time to reflect on what I've been doing up to this point as I sit and eat in silence.

Everything else is going as well as it can I suppose. I am becoming a bit more brain dead though. It appears that last night I forgot to lock the back door of the store I was at and the alarm proceeded to go off this morning at 8am. Thank goodness I have an understanding boss. It's times like these that I need to slow down and move at a pace that coincides with amount of energy I have. I can't rush through anything at this point. Mentally I'm in a pretty good spot. Physically, however, it's a very different story. My joints are killing me. My right elbow at the triceps tendon is severely inflamed. My left shoulder has been messed up for months and although the rear portion of my shoulder has healed, in the process of nursing the thing back to health, I got a nasty case of tendinitis in the front. Such is life. The break after my show will give my body a chance to heal which I need big time.

I'm not sure why I do this, my training partner is doing the same thing as well, but I seem to torture myself by watching the food network. Man vs. Food seems to be my favorite show right now. My calories are so low at this point that watching that show makes me really want to go eat crap I never wanted to before. The other night the hunger was so bad I just couldn't sleep. I'm up every hour and then before I know it it's two in the morning and my alarm is set to go off in an hour and a half. So much for a rest nights sleep. On the total opposite end of that were nights like last night. I was tired I ate my last meal, hit cardio up for the last time, and then passed out so fast I barely knew what hit me. I slept all the way through. That rarely happens as I'm typically getting up to go to the bathroom at least three to four times.

At this point in my prep I can't stop. I just can't be frazzled or sidetracked. I've got a focus that is beyond being considered driven. I'm not withdrawn or fanatical but I know what I have to do and will not stop until my goal is accomplished. I don't care who shows up in July. I have no control over that but what I do have control over I will make damn sure that it's executed to the best of my ability.

Until next time.............

JD